Sometimes, you just wonder why
there's so much dust in the wind; why your sights become so blurred that
blinking away the mist feels anything but possible. You rub your eyes
thoroughly to see if that will do the trick but realise it is not your eyes
that need 'fixing', but the universe surrounding. Your mind becomes the worst
puzzle game you've ever had to 'unpuzzle',
looking for bits, chunks and pieces here and there to fit together in attempt
to try make some sense of what's happening. In truth, a lot of the time, that
attempt ends up forming an image in your mind in your desperate attempt to
match the tiles just to figure out the puzzle. Unfortunately, that image is
never really the right one, is it? It is just what your vastly confused mind
wants to accept is the answer in order to make sense of it all.
The grey to your black and white
is anything but a reason to smile... trust me, I would know. You make a
decision thinking it is the right one but it goes off like a landmine right up
in your face. The result being that very choice being the cause of your
downfall, physically, spiritually and/or emotionally. Your shoulders get
heavier as the weight of your burdens weigh you down; the force of the earth's
gravity, seemingly a million times more than its usual drag on your slowly
weakening frame, only gets worse. The struggle to keep head-above-water is far
from easy, and sometimes you honestly just want to let go and fall to the
bottom of the ocean because you do not see clearly the reason to stay afloat. Everything
seems to end up at the crossroads of, "What's the point?!"
The void of complete unsurity is
a deep one, and the space-and-time solutions to it are worlds apart! You return
to your bed and close your eyes hoping that the next day will prove better, and
for a while, it does. Life has a way of launching blind-sided curve balls at
any unsuspecting passers-by. You know those grey areas you've never been able
to figure out? ...those areas you just kind'a blaze through hoping you're not
going to fall off a cliff end?? Yeah... we all have them. Life respects no
person. Some manage to skip hurdle after hurdle, while others trip over many of
theirs. The turnaround thing is, at some point, the tables turn and those
happily skipping hurdles start to trip over them while those that were tripping
over them gain some skill and will to overcome those hurdles.
Turning to man for a solution to
any problem he is very well unable to resolve (mostly, all the time) is akin to walking through the mist on a
mountain trail; you're lost! Those persons you consider dear to your heart, the
very same you call 'friends' are the very same you turn to in hopes of finding
help. Rather sadly, they are the very same that end up knocking the smile off
of your face leaving you livid and alone in the cold. You start to wonder in
creative confusion at everything. Creative because, you start creating in an
attempt to think up any possible reasons why this would happen. The growing
pain (hurt) in your chest confirms to
your mind that you're not dreaming, and also reminds you that you're human and
not some superman! The very same we turn to in trust break that trust and throw
it in our faces, so why keep turning in that direction?
* * * * *
So... my original idea was to write this in such a way that many would
know that they're not alone in the difficulties they're facing in life, that
all of man is going through similar events one way or the other and that there
is a way out - a light at the end of the tunnel. That being said, let's turn all
of this around now... if you will... 'cause, what's a problem without a
solution, no?
* * * * *
Humans are rather very good at
being disappointing, further proving God's council to "...put not your trust in man for the arm of
flesh WILL fail you." The "Will" in that declaration is an
assurance rather than the improbability it would be if a "May"
was used in its place. Recently, I learnt that it is prideful to worry. Why?
Well, because it indicates dependance on one's own efforts to overcome the
problems encountered rather than on God's ability to solve any problem. (I realised that that explanation should be
expanded to include relying on man as well who is human like you.) The
focus that should be giving to God (whom
many claim to hope in) is giving to man or the problems themselves instead.
It declares that you can depend on yourself which is funny because you cannot
even smile at a raging storm much less solve every single problem life throws
at you. You call on God but do not even trust Him to handle your problems... which
is insulting if not downright disregarding, so... why bother then??
I am not, by this, turning away
from my original theme of the grey areas in life, I am simply pointing out that
all of man have their difficult and frustrating moments but floating in the
ocean that is depression does not solve that situation - it subtly prevents you
from finding the way to the shore of peace. To have control over one's heart
and mind (your emotions) is quite a fit to pull off but when attained will be
an asset to overcoming the "greys" of life. Getting
confused and not knowing what to do happens to the best of us despite all the
wisdom at our disposal, but learning to gain control of yourself affords you
the advantage of finding your composure and figuring a way out of that
confusing situation. A person in shock and confused cannot think straight (trust me, I've been there) in order to
figure out a way out... the mind just blanks, but gaining commanding the power
to stay sane is the first step to finding a clear or partially clear solution
to that unnerving situation.
Prayer is the key. Talk to God.
Switch burdens... "Take my yoke upon
you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest
unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." - Matthew 11 : 29 - 30 (KJV). Call on
Him... "Come unto me, all ye that
labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." - Matthew 11 : 28 (KJV). You see, the
thing is, there is a solution to all those grey areas lurking around haunting
you and that one solution is... God!
He alone can clear the confusion, wipe away the tears and give you peace in the
heart and mind... His peace, and not the world's peace that's fleeting and
comes with strings attached but complete peace!
Call on God now and find that peace you so desire...
~ yoyo
~ inspiredwordz
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